It is a game now. That’s what life is anyway. So I can use my disconnection that way. It was a spiral, as you know. I started out different than other kids. Then I got mocked for it. Then the mockery added a new element to my differentness, a defiant differentness. Eventually the defiance morphed into detachment. But the original differentness could have been construed as defiance and detachment anyways. So they build on each other. And that may be what we’re observing in Cody. That snowball effect.
But as I said, there’s a game aspect to it. I can play with the detachment. I can play in going in and out of it. It’s not so serious. It’s my baby. It’s not so much inflicted on me. It’s me, really. And it’s Cody. It’s our game.